October 09, 2008

the uncertainties in this world

This guy could be psychotic, a criminal and yet he probably look at the world in a more detailed perspective than many of us.

It is always difficult to go through another day without having a proper plan for most people.
It reminds me of Joker's quotation in Batman, The Dark Knight:

Do I really look like a guy with a plan? You know what I am? I'm a dog chasing cars. I wouldn't know what to do with one if I caught it. You know, I just do things. The mob has plans, the cops have plans, Gordon's got plans. You know, they're schemers. Schemers trying to control their worlds. I'm not a schemer. I try to show the schemers how pathetic their attempts to control things really are. So, when I say that you and your girlfriend was nothing personal, you know that I'm telling the truth. It's the schemers that put you where you are. You were a schemer, you had plans, and uh, look where that got you. I just did what I do best. I took your little plan and I turned it on itself. Look what I did to this city with a few drums of gas and a couple of bullets. You know what I noticed? Nobody panics when things go according to plan. Even if the plan is horrifying. If tomorrow I tell the press that like a gang banger will get shot, or a truckload of soldiers will be blown up, nobody panics, because it's all, part of the plan. But when I say that one little old mayor will die, well then everyone loses their minds!

Well, probably it took me a little longer to accept the ugliness of this world. And maybe "Joker" has seen it clearer than many of us. As insane and pathetic as this man might be, he probably has noticed that the world is corrupt. No matter how noble anyone try to be.
The ending of Dark Knight probably carries a deeper meaning than it seems.

Today we look at the newspaper we wonder who is the good guy and who really is the bad guy?
Example, no one dare to say that Barrack Obama is indeed the most suitable man to lead United States. There is so much uncertainty and I probably am one of the supporter of Obama and yet I really wonder how good is this man actually. Probably like what McCain said, "Who's the real Barrack Obama?" But then again, McCain himself is not a good candidate as well.
Let's not talk so far away...back in our home, the political situation is even more complicated. Anwar Ibrahim, Najib or Abdullah Badawi?

I like the way the Dark Knight movie ended...

Joker: I took Gotham's white knight, and brought him down to our level. It wasn't hard. Y'see, madness, as you know, is like gravity. All it takes is a little...push. ...
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Harvey Dent: You either die a hero or you live long enough to see yourself become the villain.
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Batman: Sometimes, truth isn't good enough, sometimes people deserve more. Sometimes people deserve to have their faith rewarded.

So, is truth more important? Is it about painting a good picture?
I was doing my business project and I realized that so many times, I have to lie to make things look nicer and better. Talking about integrity and yet I probably was doing the same thing.


I think one very important lesson as I recalled the movie, Batman (The Dark Knight) was that for us to be even thinking about making a difference, the first thing is to truly check our own "heart". Lately, I must come to acknowledge the many times I failed as a human. Fail to play my part as a living being.

I remembered the Bible teaching us to take care of this Earth....yes, take control of it and care for it but so many times, we are doing the opposite.

I felt ashame to be even writing such things in my blog because I realized the many times that I was part of the process of the "corruption and pollution of this World."
Maybe Harvey Dent was right, that either we die as a hero or we live long enough to see ourselves becoming a villain.
For to live is to die and to die is to truly live. I must look beyond material world. I must look beyond cash, comfort, and selfish kind of love.

I want to be part of the new Kingdom that the Bible preach about. And that is what is shown in the character of Batman in the movie.

Joker: You just couldn't let me go could you? This is what happens when an unstoppable force meets an immovable object. You truly are incorruptible aren't you? You won't kill me out of some misplaced sense of self-righteousness, and I won't kill you, because you're just too much fun. I think you and I are destined to do this forever.

It is not about being a hero, but being true to oneself. And that is what it takes to make a difference. The ending of Dark Knight was a sad tale for Harvey Dent.
I hope it will not be a sad tale for me.

Today if we read the Star Online, then we will know that our current Prime Minister will not be defending his post as the UMNO president. I like the way my brother told me, he look so kesian. In his statement, I do not want a divided party, nor do I want a divided government. And that he would stay on as the PM until March.

"I know I've not been doing well; it's time for someone else to take over," he said, adding that Barisan leaders have received the news well.

For those many people inside Barisan that felt extremely happy with this news, I believe it is only time that you should check your heart, whether you're not greedy for the power and reputation...which is why you felt glad for such decision.

I only wonder what is next for Malaysia...

Today, my student smsed me and asked me for guidance for her SPM examination. I really hope that she will do well. In a way, throughout my last few months being a tutor, I've seen how students who hate studying start putting in the effort for a better result as they find the fulfillment and understanding in that subject. And yes, how interest and understanding could change the perspective of one. And I hope many more will begin to look at the world and start to see the "flaws", "corruption" and "dying" values of this Earth.
Make a change....do we really care?
I was on the phone with her when I realized that OMG! I'm wasting my time but something ponder in my mind...."Do I really care?"
I knew then that I am her tutor and I should care enough to listen and give the proper guidance.

It is quite tiring preparing for the "Hari Keusahawanan 08" in UM. In a way, I felt that I am doing too much but I must really learn to thank and appreciate those who do their best as well. In a way, my expectation of people was a bit far-fetched. Anyway I learned my mistakes throughout the preparation.
My group will be selling BigApple Donut and really, I wanna thank Wai Hin for the willingness to fetch me from Midvalley to UM as I had no other means of transportation to carry the doughnuts from Midvalley to UM. Your help is much appreciated.

I really am very tired....tired because of the many uncertainties and the workload.
A lot of my friends were telling me that I should take rest and stop working.
I believe it is a matter of time that I might follow their advice...

Good night!!







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