January 25, 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Samuel!!

Been a while since I plan people's birthday....tired as usual. Anyway, just wanna tell you that I love you bro!
Well, to be honest, there is so much frustration in planning stuff sometimes and it usually made you feel tired and even sucks....yet at the end of all of it, I'm glad that we had a great time together, bro!
I did not know how to express myself anymore, not even with this blog. Probably it came to a point that so many things become so private...so much of the "frustration" stuck within. I love it the way "CONFESSION OF PAIN" was being shown. As much as it might be a bit bored and the progress is a bit taking too long, yet it carries so much meaning in it.
So much for the good guy to bear....or maybe there actually isn't any good guy.
Anyway, throughout the process of getting over the disappointment left behind once, I felt that there isn't any difference in any of the roads I'm taking.
I guess it was one of the most meaningful time to celebrate people's birthday and being able to say...."Hey! We've been through all these through the year..."
The feelings sometimes unbearable....and it only point many to one direction.....moving on seems like a bad idea, holding on seems like one full of shit....so what choice is left behind?
I won't said I can think of it...better alternative?? kinda empty at the moment...maybe celebration...but what sort of celebration? Inclusive? Exclusive? How to differentiate it? Love...what if someone replied that with "HEY!! You didn't do this...you didn't do that..."
Can't help it but was totally turn off by Benita's statement...

All the shits that is going on in my life...yet so much more has to be taken as priority. Was it because I'm becoming more selfish or was it because I'm not following the rules of the game?

The world is fake...everyone know that.
The question mark would be what about you and me?

How is a celebration look like?
Growing into adulthood seems to be accepting "reality" as part of your life.

Well anyway Samuel, growing into 20 adi...the first among the rest of us to leave the "teen" years.
Hope that even as the world turns out to be a shit, you will still carry that aroma of love, humility and sincerity. No heroes needed...just normal human who would accept the shits in life and try to make a little bit better out of those shits.




Sorry for the shits in this post.

January 24, 2008

Yet another tiring day....anyway just wanna drop this here for Samuel.....



HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

MUAXX!!!

January 19, 2008



IMAGE OF HOPE???

Saw this in Aaron's page....kinda nice the pics he draw...this is one of the inspiration he had though I don't know how he could think of it, nevertheless HOPE is the message...

It really helps to widen my perspectives on what hope could really mean....thanks Aaron...
Working with Malays...who said it's bad....

Well, my work requires me to learn from a Malay lady and to be honest, after hearing so many bad things about Malays, sometimes I do doubt the ability of them yet my first 3 days at work proven to be smooth sailing thanks to the guidance of the Malay lady there. I really felt that it was not about what kind of people we are that makes the difference. Look...some people might be smarter and learn faster while some may not yet there is something that these people know better than us.
So let us stop classifying people as "they" and "us".
A "WE" would be better and perharps only then that people would finally see a united MALAYSIA.
To be realistic, it is going to be a long road to reach there yet let us start little by little.

January 17, 2008

SOMETHING ABOUT MY WORK...

To be honest, I am not really happy with the work cause it's kinda boring....easy job but pay low...sad case...anyway I decided not to stand...so guess this is what I'll have to do then...an office job. Well, I did not really talk much at the moment cause I am still getting used to the environment...working from 8.30 - 5.30 is kinda tired also...but anyway I guess it is a good working experience for me.

Well, nothing much lately besides starting another forum...well, a better one...well, just another way to start a community and sharing knowledge and point of views....

http://ipohmaliinvisio.invisioni.com/


Hmm....at the moment, am also giving tuition to some of the Form 5 students...well, like I said before...it is more or less like remembering your "first love"....I think that is why I never have to struggle with Maths cause I love it.

ANyway that's all for now...more updates later...guys, take care ohh!!! ALL THE BEST for the road ahead....

January 15, 2008

Going to start work tomorrow....=P

It's getting late and I am probably gonna go to bed any time soon although it's only about 11.00 cause tomorrow will be my first day of work as a clerk...gosh! Well, holiday is over...time to work and earn some $$$

Well, hopefully the working environment will be good....


Working hours from 8.30 - 5.30. That is kinda long but guess I can't complain much...but I don't have to use petrol and parking money...hahaha!

January 14, 2008

VICTORIOUS???




Was just chatting with Guo Jian on what to do next in life...and it seems that money is so important in life....maybe that is why if you look through the internet sites, anything that is regarding money usually have more traffic...guess the world is all looking for money...money matter$$$....

Well, as I thought about my life, I wonder what would a "victorious" life looks like?
I won't deny that having lots of money could probably be a sign of that but if money is everything what is happening to celebrities like Britney Spears or Lindsay Lohan??

To be honest as I stepped into this world where everyone seem to be going after money, the tendency is that I would follow the same trend....was it a crime to even be greedy?? loL!
Probably it would only make more sense to me as I continue to walk through this road into adulthood....into the working world...

I have these feeling deep down inside me...that victory is just like a painting of an artist...it is not about how just the world look at that art and determine the price of it. It is probably more than that....a six years old kid drawing to his daddy probably is the most expensive gift for that father....what is victory?? what is a successful story? Have we all been trapped in a mindset of those who determine what it means to be a victorious person??
OLD THOUGHTS...still relevant today???



I just saw some of the sms I sent to Samuel ages ago in his handphone...and I realized that some of those thoughts are still very much relevant to me today so decided to post it here....


I realize how easy to forget what love reali is when i try 2 love those around me. it took a sincere approach to face the ugly side of ourselves n i'm glad to have a community to go through with me.

22:17:11
20-07-2007


A selfish thought came upon me as i struggled with time. the celebration and effort for others. sometimes i wonder if there are any real frenz beside u all. the quest seem to b full of void. in the present past is only memory that can't b recovered while future only images of uncertainty. the muddled world suck us all into the system that define what is real and good. what a quest full of futility. where do i stand in all these mess or am i a part of the mess?


17:32:21
28-04-2007

January 13, 2008

I just started a forum in this site....http://ipohmali.freeforums.org/
Kinda new so I guess it is good to have discussion with you guys on issues that are related. Hopefully you guys will update me on some of the education opportunities through the forum as well.

January 12, 2008

First day of tuition...

Giving my first class to two students today. Well, Form 5 Mathematics...guess I still remember a lot of it. In fact getting started was not that difficult either. It is more like remembering your "first love". Haha!
Well, time flies when one is busy and when I was teaching today, I was not even aware that I taught longer than I was supposed to. Anyway it was a good lesson I guess.
I am going to give the Add Maths class beginning tomorrow and hopefully the lessons would be able to help my friends.
Guess that is about my job...loL! (too bad...I'm lazy to be a promoter or that sort jobs.)
Evon, I don't have an experience to share being in the office working from 9-5. so this is part of what I have been doing lately. Will be sharing more on what is going on in my life besides blogging...

January 09, 2008

Yesterday
was history,
tomorrow
is mystery
but
today is what gonna make the difference.

Was just reflecting on something and thought of that words. What a life to live in....
Religion...God...sometimes it's all mixed up....

Today went out for a movie with a close friend of mine (Liang Hin)...watched National Treasures 2. Guess all the conspiracy at times get overboard nevertheless it was a good one. Good job for Nicholas Cage casting as Benjamin Gates. Cool name, huh? =P
Well, after that we went for supper...it's been a while since I really went out for supper with Liang Hin loo...anyway am glad that we had a good conversation though. We mentioned a bit about God and how Christianity is making sense now for him. One thing that I really enjoy about the conversation is that there really isn't any right or wrong at that point. It was simply his perspectives and how he is trying to make sense of what he believes in and in almost every way I agreed with him.

But it was during this conversation that I realized how things can all really get mixed up...the whole religion thing...and I really think religion is a very sensitive issue. Almost every Christians that are devoted to their religion would be quick to protest if one mentioned about anything that challenge the "fundamental truths".

As much as things are changing for me and many like me, I believe that we are still Christians, Christians that tried to see God beyond religion. And not that we are better than others but the way we look at things...our perspectives towards the Higher Being. What really important is that room for disagreement, for conversations to be carried on.

Let the cross not be a symbol of "arrogance" and "pride" but of humility, love and acceptance. While we may have great and long answers formed in our heads with many reasons and logics at it, yet let us learn to be willing to listen to the many other stories...the minor stories and also the big ones....while we may not fully agree on one another let us focus on what is really good.
If there is a need to quarrel and debate over certain "truths" then let us relook at what it means to follow Jesus for Christians while for other people of different religion, let us look at God in a bigger picture....why spending the time on what is the truth if at the end of it, all would simply be speculation?

The old lady next door might only need a simple visitation from you or a simple hi. Your parents might just need a sms from you and that's it. Wouldn't it be more radical to talk about God in the way we love one another. If religion and God are 2 different things (which many of us believe in), then most of us are only embracing religion...let us relook at our lives...

January 05, 2008

Was feeling really bored lately when I came across a picture that perfectly describe this miserable feeling of mine.


Guys it is kinda bored lately...hopefully things will start to turn around for me. Hehe...laziness is also getting over me. Well, I was just looking through some of the photos I took during the holiday that I realized the mistakes done by people in Penang....loL!

Check this out:

WELCOME TO MEGAMAL PINANG...loL!

January 04, 2008

Still recognize yourself?

I was listening to the HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 2 soundtrack again and again.
Well, if you don't know the story, better get one to watch cause the music go in line with the story and it brings quite a good meaning, not just in terms of love or relationship but also about not losing yourself even as you try to achieve your dreams as you grow into adulthood. At least it speaks to me in such a way.
In short, it is really a show for young adults....


Here is the lyrics of 2 of my favourite song....BET ON IT and EVERYDAY

BET ON IT

Everybody always talking at me
Everybody trying to get in my head
I wanna listen to my own heart talking
I need to count on myself instead

Did you ever
Lose yourself to get what you want
Did you ever
Get on a ride and wanna get off
Did you ever
Push away the ones
You should've held close
Did you ever let go
Did you never not know

Chorus
I'm not gonna stop
That's who I am
I'll give it all I got
That is my plan
Will I find what I lost
You know you can

Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
I don't need
I wanna make it right
That is the way
To turn my life around
Today is the day
Am I the type of guy
Who means what I say
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it

How will I know
If there's a path worth takin
Should I question every move I make
With all I've lost my heart is breaking
I don't wanna make the same mistake

Did you ever
Doubt your dream will never come true
Did you ever
Blame the world but never blame you
And will never
Try to live a lie again
I don't wanna win this game
If I can't play it my way

Chorus
I'm not gonna stop
That's who I am
I'll give it all I got

[ Bet On It lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
That is my plan
Will I found what I lost
You know you can

Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
I wanna make it right
That is the way
To turn my life around
Today is the day
Am I the type of guy
Who means what I say
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on me

Oh hold up
Give me the room to think
Bring it on now
Got to work on my swing
Got to do my own thing
Hold up

It's no good at all
To see self and not recognize your face
Out on my own is such a scary place Ohhh
The answers are all inside of me
All I gotta do is believe

I'm not gonna stop
Not gonna stop till I get my shot
That's who I am
That's my plan
Will I end up on top
You can
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
You can
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
I wanna make it right
That is the way
To turn my life around
Today is the day
Am I the type of guy
Who means what I say
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
You can bet on me




EVERYDAY

[Troy]
Once in a lifetime
Means there’s no second chance
So I believe than you and me
Should grab it while we can

[Gabriella]
Make it last forever
And never give it back

[Troy]
It’s our turn, and I’m loving’ where we’re at

[Troy y Gabriella]
Because this moment’s really all we have

[Troy]
Everyday
Of our lives,

[Gabriella]
Wanna find you there, wanna hold on tight

[Troy]
Gonna run

[Troy y Gabriella]
While we’re young
And keep the faith

[Troy]
Everyday

[Troy y Gabriella]
From right now,
Gonna use our voices and scream out loud

[Gabriella]
Take my hand;

[Troy]
Together we
Will celebrate,

[Gabriella]
Celebrate.

[Troy y Gabriella]
Oh, ev’ryday.

[Gabriella]
They say that you should follow

[Troy]
And chase down what you dream,

[Gabriella]
But if you get lost and lose yourself

[Troy]
What does is really mean?

[Gabriella]
No matter where we’re going,

[Troy]
It starts from where we are.

[Gabriella, Troy y Gabriella]
There’s more to life when we listen to our hearts
[Troy y Gabriella]
And because of you, I’ve got the strength to start

Yeah, yeah, yeah!
[ Everyday lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]

Everyday
Of our lives,
[Troy y Gabriella, Gabriella]
Wanna find you there, wanna hold on tight
[Troy y Gabriella]
Gonna run
While we’re young
And keep the faith.

Everyday
[Troy]
From right now,
Gonna use our voices and scream out loud
Take my hand;
Together we
Will celebrate,
[Gabriella]
Oh, ev’ryday

[Troy]
We’re taking it back,
We’re doing it here
Together!

[Gabriella]
It’s better like that,
And stronger now
Than ever!
[Troy y Gabriella]
We’re not gonna lose.
‘Cause we get to choose.
That’s how it’s gonna be!

[Troy]
Everyday
Of our lives,
[Gabriella]
Wanna find you there, wanna hold on tight.
[Troy]
Gonna run
While we’re young
[Troy y Gabriella]
And keep the faith
Keep the faith!

[Choir]
Everyday
Of our lives,
Wanna find you there, wanna hold on tight.
Gonna run
While we’re young
And keep the faith

Everyday
From right now,
Gonna use our voices and scream out loud
Take my hand;
Together we
Will celebrate,

Ev’ryday!
Live ev’ry day!
Love ev’ryday!
Live ev’ryday!
Love ev’ryday!
Ev’ryday!
Ev’ryday!
Ev’ryday!
Ev’ryday!
Ev’ryday!
Ev’ryday!
Ev’ryday!

[Gabriella]
Ev’ryday!

January 01, 2008

Holiday in Penang...

just before the trip....

Just a few days before the New Year, I had a holiday trip to Penang. It was a tiring and yet one experience that I will cherish and embrace as it was a time for the family to get together. I really am glad that my bro has always shown me what it means to care and love for my family. I knew I will never be such a blessing to my family like my brother is to the family but I will learn to play my part even if it is in small ways.

On the road to Penang...

the apartment where we stay...


swimming like a pro

beach party...with my uncle and aunty along...




Even in a holiday trip you need a break...
up: my family in the living room taking a nice break
below: my dad ready to take a short nap

me, Jovian and sister....what was I looking?? I think it is a pretty girl that caught my eye...


SOME NICE SHOTS FROM THE TRIP...










And that sums up the short and simple trip of mine with my family to Penang. It was incredible to have my parents, bro and eldest sister along with my two uncles and aunties as well as my cousins...the VIANs...(only my family members would understand this)

Well, to my second sister, Chiew Lian, hope these photos keep you updated...loL! Happy working and looking forward to see you.

Signing off....muaaaxxXX!!!


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