March 19, 2008

Get cha head in the game!

Now that I am in the process of entering the working world, somehow I felt tremendous pressure from those around me. In a way, I wanted to prove adults who think that I am not experienced enough wrong. Sometimes I really hope I will be growing up faster because only then can I tell the world that "Hey! I might not be as experienced as you but I have my perspectives and I believe that it is valid." Such is the struggle that I felt growing up. While I do not deny that I still have a lot of things to learn but I also believe that I have been able to see farther ahead by standing on the shoulder of Giants...such is the quotation from Isaac Newton.
Anyway I think only time will tell the story to mankind. I am looking for some history books to read but then come to think of it again, history books are so much manipulated by winners of a certain story.
It made me think for my life ahead. I remembered watching I AM LEGEND....and to be honest, I will want to leave a legacy for myself before I go into the other world. But the story that I am going to write might be so full of corruption, bias perspectives and even selfish motivation.
Well, not to forget that we are all human beings with our own "hidden agendas".
Moving on at this stage seems to tell me to get my head in the game, understand what it takes to win this game, but it also reminds me to remain true to myself as I move on in this life. If I have to lose myself to win this game, what good is that victory after all?
I am using languages of HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL in this part of my blog....so if you don't really understand, then probably you will have to spend 2 hours on that movie and though as predicted as it is, I guess it is something to freshen up our dying part of integrity. I remembered a friend that once told me that "Happy Ever After" is fake....I can't really agreed with that and though I do not deny it. Haha! seems like a paradox to you?
Well, maybe the best way to put it would be "Happy ever After" from what you watched from the HOLLYWOOD is fake but it can exist if you and I work towards that goal. Just as much as people think that corruption is going to be a common part when one comes into the working world, but I believe it takes more than courage to hold on firmly on integrity and no doubt it will be a tough road ahead, I want to walk a road that I will be proud of someday when I look back.
Get cha head in the game?? It is really all up to you.

March 16, 2008

Finding meaning...

Thinking bout the next step almost always made me wonder what is this life all about?
Was just spending some time with my good buddies yesterday and not much serious conversation, only some silly jokes and dinner together.
I remembered watching a series where the actor said, "I'm someone that is serious about my life and am responsible with the things that I do. I just don't know what I want in life yet...that's all."
It made me laugh thinking about that remark for I felt that was what I wanted to tell people around me. But then again if I'm serious about my life, I should at least know what I want right? loL!
I am listening to the new album by the Backstreet Boys and I like the beat very much...give me much space to relax and think. I don't really know what to blog anymore....politics seem to be a hot topic lately but I prefer to keep quiet on this...probably politics does not make much sense to me at the moment. Well, maybe my dad was right...I am still young...so much more bout life that I do not know.
Aiks...boredom seems to stick with me.
Everything that I do becomes a routine and eventually bored. haha! Could this be life?
If I were to live in this way for the rest of my life, it will definitely be a NO!
I want to explore this world a lil bit. Enough of just exploring it through the net....but guess again, nothing is going to come true without money. Sucks! Yesterday when I went to Liang Hin's place, I saw him watching CONSTANTINE again...and it made me think how funny is it that these people just care about Heaven and Hell but forgot bout this life now. Maybe not so much of the movie but more so of the people I used to spend a lot of time with...erm...to name some would be like Aunty Esther, Pastor Chan, Uncle Cheow Leong and to be honest many more.
Just felt like mentioning their names here in my blog for the first time....haha! out of anger but I think I have every right to state what I feel inside after spending so much time under their leadership.

I will find my own meaning in this life. I know that this life is beautiful...it only need more people to really care for the living

March 12, 2008

STPM results...

Yesterday was the day where I got my STPM results. 2A, 1A- and a B+ was okay to be honest but I was expecting something more. I thought I could be getting A for my Physics and not an A-. So was kinda disappointed. Anyway I guess I can't change anything already by now. So might as well just focus on the next step.
Well, to all my friends who have done exceedingly well for their examination, CONGRATULATIONS!!
As for those who might be disappointed with their results, I guess it is something that none of us can change now and the best thing to do is to look for the better option now.
I know that it is not easy to do it but I really hope that you guys would be able to get what you dream to be.
Hmm....enough of STPM results I guess.
So, the next step seems like a difficult to choose from. Some people go after dream....I am not so sure about what would it be that I will follow after.
Anyway that is all for the STPM updates.

March 09, 2008

Just stop work.
Election is over.
Now what??
STPM results coming...OMG!!
Haha! really been freaking out now that the results are coming out on Tuesday noon. Honestly I am not confident these time around for the examination results. But what has been done is over...now the past is history...time to look forward. Recently was thinking a lot about what to do next. Although I heard a lot of people mentioned about studying overseas under loan and stuff...I felt it really isn't worth it. For me to spend so much on studying, coming out into the working world will be full of burden...full of debt. I rather be studying in cheaper university (that's if I get to enter also) cause how many fresh graduates are going to earn 5 figure salary. Hmm....basically everyone be earning around the same amount....it is just how fast you will be getting increment. I believe that the working world is different and yes, a lot of people said it's dirty. But I want to believe that doing the right thing will also be a key factor to be successful.
Anyway that is all another story.

Haha! Well, now I guess it is time to come back to Earth and look at more possible choice.
Actuarial science seems to be providing a good path for a good career but how long will that take? Probably some people will think that I am trying to push the time into so short that it is impossible but really, I think only that will motivates one to go the extra mile in everything.
I might consider actuarial science though and if I get to enter the university....great...I'll be going in but chances are...hmm...let's say it's a lil negative.
Anyway guess these are the things that really have been occupying me. Friends, I never think that growing up will be such a difficult process but now that I am in it, I understand that it takes more than just believing and talking about growing up.

Just the other day, a friend told me that my blog is more or less the same in the content. In some ways, I agreed. I guess it was the way I look at life and at that point, I knew that I have never really been looking outside the box. If I am able to look at this world in another spectacle, I would probably be learning more about the abundance of this world.
The next thing I will be focusing on is MUSIC....I wanted to get myself playing guitar again, probably learning a bit of piano....(not sure if my aunty will have the time or not though). Well, let's just said I am trying to allow my emotion to be moved by a different platform. LOL! Perspectives, mentality, emotional, spirituality....I think it is all connected....probably it is like an attractive force among these elements and also some repulsive force when these connection are being too close. But then again, it all seem too organize at the moment.....I think all these platforms will still be changing all the time...just read something from the "HOO-HAH" of the GENERAL ELECTION lately...changes are bound to happen, only dead people that don't change.
How long have you been a dead people???


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