October 31, 2008

Will be out for more than a week

How I wanna blog about so many things and yet I know I need to put it all at a side for the moment, as the date to my final examination draw closer.

I won't be blogging about a week...probably be back here by 13th November.
Love you guys lots!

October 29, 2008

My birthday...thanks everyone!!

I was a bit exhausted by the time I reached home to Ipoh on Monday, and I knew I'll be going out at night again for my birthday with a bunch of good friends. Miss them lots as I have not been hanging out with them for quite a while.

Anyway, I felt that it's different...the feeling is not the same anymore. It's as if a group of close friends coming to a time when they are going to say Goodbye.

Guys, I really wanna said that things could have change and is different. But I'm still the same Kian Hin. The guy that will stand by your side in times when the world is against you. This is the only assurance I could give you as a friend, as a brother. My birthday wish is really for this friendship to continue to last, and blossom and be a great blessing to many others.

Unwrapping the gifts...guys, I love it lots...means a lot to me

My best pal for life, Jian Yao, Liang Hin, Sam C., Yen Leng (girlfriend), Addie, Me, Alicia Yap
The person who took this photo is Aunty Lindy, a 'spiritual mother' to me in a lot of ways...really appreciate the years spent together.

This was when I went out with my friends. Today I went out with Yen Leng for HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3. Maybe she don't know about it but tears were flowing out my eyes as I watched the movie. It reflected on how a lot of my friendship has come to an end as well. Anyway I really enjoy the day with her. Thanks for planning and thinking so much for me. I love you, Yen Leng.

My best birthday gift is that despite of all that's going through in my life, I know you're there for me always.

Cameron trip

Exam is next week and I was too busy to get near any of my books.
Being away during the weekend with my family in Cameron and celebrating my birthday with my friends and girlfriend on Monday and Tuesday are wonderful but definitely a REMINDER for me that my exam is just 7 days away.

Excited about the trip!!

The apartment we staying in....

A thumbs up from my bro...

Throughout this trip, it really made me realize how wonderful this family is despite of the fact that there are so much differences among us.
I knew that this sort of trip is like a family gathering for me, with my aunties and uncles joining in and that's what make the trip different, because it's not about having fun, but staying together and doing things together, as a family.

Doing the dancing walk on the road....some crazy family!!

my sister saying Hi to the cameraman, ME!!

The muscleman, my Uncle....

Here's the handsome guy, my bro...

A bit of "SPARTAN'S DANCE" during the walk...

Well, not everyone can dance right?

Reaching our destination, from Tanah Rata to Brinchang...not bad for a group of "lazy ass"...

Some of the places we visit in Cameron

That would be my trip to Cameron....not too exciting but definitely a good place and time to hang out with family.

October 22, 2008

Making the best out of our lives...

I was just reading this blog from a friend of mine...that it is not the length of life that matters but the depth of it.
Indeed, throughout my entire youth, at times I wonder why is it that I wasted it in the Youth group in church and not spending my time doing things in school, "leaving a legacy behind in my school", like how many of my friends did....William, Wai Hin, Keith, Kee Cheong and others.
At times, I felt I wasted my youth trying to make a difference in the wrong place.
But as I was reflecting on my past, I believe that the years spent in Youth, and how I make the most of it...I should never regret of it despite of the fact that it did not end happily.
Throughout my entire Youth, I think I have been influential and inspirational to many others...and how the lives of many others speak into mine as well. No doubt about it, the commitment and love shown to this family, TIMOTHY cell has left me dry up a little bit as time pass by and how most friendship could easily be forgotten just like that, but still there are many others that has left a great impact in my life.

I think staying in the Youth and serving in the Youth Ministry in church has taught me much and indeed, it is not the length of time that I spend in this Ministry that counts. There are those who are serving in the church for like 20+ years but what is it if that length of time is spent on selfish power and control.

I think there is much depth in my moment in the church ministry....someone who has been there, growing and giving its' best in every single way.

I believe it is indeed time to move on to something and today, I finally could put a closure to this chapter of my life.

October 21, 2008

Stuck inside UM....

I felt rather suffocated to be stuck inside UM while I could actually go home if not because of the stupid presentation on Friday.
Nevertheless, I thought why not use this time to edit my blog as well....haha!
I thought of editing the layout but then the thought of creating another blog seems to attract me in a way. Probably thanks to the comment by Evon....loL! Evon was telling me that I should blog more about my own personal life instead of being a little bit too political. I must admit that I was a bit political in a few posting but probably I begin to realize how much it means to take part of the nation's situation.

And that I'm a Malaysian who is also ready to make my stand for democracy rights and to help create a better country.

So, I might just create a blog for political purpose....but then, it's all just part of the thoughts in my mind at the moment. Not much action is taken for now.

Well, before I forgot, I must really thank Evon for waiting for me to go back together on Friday...really appreciate that a lot. My birthday is coming soon....another week...7 more days to go and it will be me becoming 20.

Haha! Anyway I'm just feeling a bit too bored at the moment, stuck inside University Malaya...
Feeling really moody now....

October 16, 2008

I wanna fuc###### complain of these shits!!


I was feeling rather shitty today.
I have to prepare for the slide presentation for my business project in University Malaya.
Honestly I felt very disappointed with the group I was in. I might say I regretted joining this group instead of those from the same residential college as I.
I am angry and frustrated because most of the time, I have to f#!! do all the shits.
I really do appreciate those who do their part willingly and really, if not for them, I might just give up of the assignment and really, I don't mind not getting an A for it.

Sometimes it really make me wonder if these university students really deserve to be in. I mean they are not responsible, proactive and they don't give a shit to their own part for the assignment.

They want an A but seriously. they don't deserve one. At least for most of them.

I'll tell you what I did for the entire project.
The initial plan was to call Big Apple and I did. Then there were some miscommunication between Big Apple and I, which is why the whole thing was postponed. While we were looking for other products for the project, none of them really give any promising or constructive ideas.
I managed to contact some people for Spritzer POP and all that I asked the Secretary was to type a letter. And guess what, she did not do it at all and then the time was not enough for her to type the simple letter. All she told me was I don't know. And to make it worse, she only tell me when the dateline is drawing closer like never before.
And she was like giving excuses about not able to do the business proposal because she need to type a one page letter. What a stupid ass!

I did the business proposal.
I help to get 51+ orders before the day itself.
I am the one who call back Big Apple. I am the one who ask my friends for transportation. I am also the one who get the bicycle for our delivery services.

So tell me...what the shit that these university students are doing? besides wanting to get the "A" for themselves.
Firstly, most of them will not give any suggestions and when they did, they never try to come out with some solutions as well...only telling me problems and leaving it as it is.

And now I'm going to do the slide and the presentation with another 4 people.

Honestly, I really wonder if all these students only care for their own grades. Come on...if you're smart, you'll still get an A if you are darn busy.
And probably the fact was that they are not.

Next thing that I really wanna complain is that most of the UM idiots love to just leave the water tap running. Their behaviour ain't a reflection of an undergraduate, more like some nasty, selfish ass coming out to town.

And then there were these group of idiots who kept smoking.
I just felt that they didn't realized how much they are actually killing the environment with their stupid cigarettes.

Sometimes I wonder what kind of university is this, with such residents who only think about themselves. And we are not asking them to do anything extraordinary, only doing their small parts. I seriously am disappointed with my university life, although I must admit that there are some good friends in there as well.
Nevertheless, I really do believe that this kind of experience teach me more about the real world and how much it takes to make a difference in this upside down Earth.

I know that these posting is full of words that are not so civilized but I guess the frustration within me prompted me to write out this post.

I hope for those who read this post, you will also think about your part in this Earth and stop thinking about yourself. I am angry at some of them but I felt this posting help me release those anger and hopefully, I will be able to see them eye to eye the next time I see them in university.

I'm not usually against stupid people, but honestly
stupid jerk should just GET LOST!!

October 11, 2008

Where peace begins....knowing that we are one family under GOD

I was looking at the promotion for the GLOBAL PEACE FESTIVAL 2008. I come across the theme song and it didn't take long to make me fall in love with it.

The song is sing by Malaysian Idols,

JAClyn Victor & Daniel Lee.

Well, I wanna post the song here...hopefully you guys enjoy it as well....


Jaclyn: Here we stand together
One in all humanity
For we are sister and brother
We are one family
Daniel: Its our school of love and peace
Where we've learned there's a way
For the world to live in harmony
And together we all say
Jaclyn n Daniel(chorus): This is where peace begins
Here we sow the seeds of love
It all starts with our knowing
We are one family
We are one family under God
Jaclyn: Marilah kita bersama
Bersatu dan berharmoni
Hidup aman sejahtera
Di bumi tuhan ini
Daniel: Berbeza bangsa dan agama
Namun kita bersaudara
Dunia ini milik bersama
Biar aman selamanya
Jaclyn n Daniel(chorus): This is where peace begins
Here we sow the seeds of love
It all starts with our knowing
We are one family
We are one family under God
Under God
We are one
This is where peace begins
Here we sow the seeds of love
It all starts with our knowing
We are one family
We are one family under God
This is where peace begins
Here we sow the seeds of love
It all starts with our knowing
We are one family
We are one family under God
We are one family
We are one family under God
We are one family
We are one family under God

October 10, 2008

Wanna change the world? Let's start talking about it...

Google's 10th anniversary seems to be driving the company towards more introspection and philanthropy.
The Project 10^100 through which the company is soliciting ideas for projects that have the potential to change the world and help as many people as possible. Google will select the 100 best ideas submitted to the project and then ask users to vote on which ones to fund. These votes will determine the 20 finalists and a group of judges will then choose the five best ideas from this pool. Google has committed $10 million to fund these ideas.
For those who are interested the submissions are due by 20th October 2008.

Check out the website here: http://www.project10tothe100.com/index.html

October 09, 2008

the uncertainties in this world

This guy could be psychotic, a criminal and yet he probably look at the world in a more detailed perspective than many of us.

It is always difficult to go through another day without having a proper plan for most people.
It reminds me of Joker's quotation in Batman, The Dark Knight:

Do I really look like a guy with a plan? You know what I am? I'm a dog chasing cars. I wouldn't know what to do with one if I caught it. You know, I just do things. The mob has plans, the cops have plans, Gordon's got plans. You know, they're schemers. Schemers trying to control their worlds. I'm not a schemer. I try to show the schemers how pathetic their attempts to control things really are. So, when I say that you and your girlfriend was nothing personal, you know that I'm telling the truth. It's the schemers that put you where you are. You were a schemer, you had plans, and uh, look where that got you. I just did what I do best. I took your little plan and I turned it on itself. Look what I did to this city with a few drums of gas and a couple of bullets. You know what I noticed? Nobody panics when things go according to plan. Even if the plan is horrifying. If tomorrow I tell the press that like a gang banger will get shot, or a truckload of soldiers will be blown up, nobody panics, because it's all, part of the plan. But when I say that one little old mayor will die, well then everyone loses their minds!

Well, probably it took me a little longer to accept the ugliness of this world. And maybe "Joker" has seen it clearer than many of us. As insane and pathetic as this man might be, he probably has noticed that the world is corrupt. No matter how noble anyone try to be.
The ending of Dark Knight probably carries a deeper meaning than it seems.

Today we look at the newspaper we wonder who is the good guy and who really is the bad guy?
Example, no one dare to say that Barrack Obama is indeed the most suitable man to lead United States. There is so much uncertainty and I probably am one of the supporter of Obama and yet I really wonder how good is this man actually. Probably like what McCain said, "Who's the real Barrack Obama?" But then again, McCain himself is not a good candidate as well.
Let's not talk so far away...back in our home, the political situation is even more complicated. Anwar Ibrahim, Najib or Abdullah Badawi?

I like the way the Dark Knight movie ended...

Joker: I took Gotham's white knight, and brought him down to our level. It wasn't hard. Y'see, madness, as you know, is like gravity. All it takes is a little...push. ...
Harvey Dent: You either die a hero or you live long enough to see yourself become the villain.
Batman: Sometimes, truth isn't good enough, sometimes people deserve more. Sometimes people deserve to have their faith rewarded.

So, is truth more important? Is it about painting a good picture?
I was doing my business project and I realized that so many times, I have to lie to make things look nicer and better. Talking about integrity and yet I probably was doing the same thing.

I think one very important lesson as I recalled the movie, Batman (The Dark Knight) was that for us to be even thinking about making a difference, the first thing is to truly check our own "heart". Lately, I must come to acknowledge the many times I failed as a human. Fail to play my part as a living being.

I remembered the Bible teaching us to take care of this Earth....yes, take control of it and care for it but so many times, we are doing the opposite.

I felt ashame to be even writing such things in my blog because I realized the many times that I was part of the process of the "corruption and pollution of this World."
Maybe Harvey Dent was right, that either we die as a hero or we live long enough to see ourselves becoming a villain.
For to live is to die and to die is to truly live. I must look beyond material world. I must look beyond cash, comfort, and selfish kind of love.

I want to be part of the new Kingdom that the Bible preach about. And that is what is shown in the character of Batman in the movie.

Joker: You just couldn't let me go could you? This is what happens when an unstoppable force meets an immovable object. You truly are incorruptible aren't you? You won't kill me out of some misplaced sense of self-righteousness, and I won't kill you, because you're just too much fun. I think you and I are destined to do this forever.

It is not about being a hero, but being true to oneself. And that is what it takes to make a difference. The ending of Dark Knight was a sad tale for Harvey Dent.
I hope it will not be a sad tale for me.

Today if we read the Star Online, then we will know that our current Prime Minister will not be defending his post as the UMNO president. I like the way my brother told me, he look so kesian. In his statement, I do not want a divided party, nor do I want a divided government. And that he would stay on as the PM until March.

"I know I've not been doing well; it's time for someone else to take over," he said, adding that Barisan leaders have received the news well.

For those many people inside Barisan that felt extremely happy with this news, I believe it is only time that you should check your heart, whether you're not greedy for the power and reputation...which is why you felt glad for such decision.

I only wonder what is next for Malaysia...

Today, my student smsed me and asked me for guidance for her SPM examination. I really hope that she will do well. In a way, throughout my last few months being a tutor, I've seen how students who hate studying start putting in the effort for a better result as they find the fulfillment and understanding in that subject. And yes, how interest and understanding could change the perspective of one. And I hope many more will begin to look at the world and start to see the "flaws", "corruption" and "dying" values of this Earth.
Make a change....do we really care?
I was on the phone with her when I realized that OMG! I'm wasting my time but something ponder in my mind...."Do I really care?"
I knew then that I am her tutor and I should care enough to listen and give the proper guidance.

It is quite tiring preparing for the "Hari Keusahawanan 08" in UM. In a way, I felt that I am doing too much but I must really learn to thank and appreciate those who do their best as well. In a way, my expectation of people was a bit far-fetched. Anyway I learned my mistakes throughout the preparation.
My group will be selling BigApple Donut and really, I wanna thank Wai Hin for the willingness to fetch me from Midvalley to UM as I had no other means of transportation to carry the doughnuts from Midvalley to UM. Your help is much appreciated.

I really am very tired....tired because of the many uncertainties and the workload.
A lot of my friends were telling me that I should take rest and stop working.
I believe it is a matter of time that I might follow their advice...

Good night!!

October 03, 2008

Embrace the memory...

Just the other day, I went out with my Form 6 classmates and no doubt about it, I enjoy the time spent together.

In a way, it remind me of how the friendship has developed in about 1 and a half years.
No doubt about it, with Boon Tat not around, there is something missing in it. Lol! But glad to be seeing Kumara again..and of course Kiean San and Chee Lupp. I seldom see them compared to the rest, which is why I put their names here in my blog.

Well, I hope those friends of mine who read my blog...I love you guys and will embrace this friendship.

The previous weeks, I had a dinner with William for his birthday. Nothing special. Just me, my girlfriend, Evon and him eating in Moven's Peak. Well, it's great to just have some time with close friends, eating and talking about "stuff". And of course, it's great to get to see Guo Jian as he was back. We went "yum cha" at OLD TOWN KOPITIAM and I'm beginning to wonder if there's any other place for us to go actually. Lol! But honestly, I really am happy to have those time together although we were basically just wasting our time, talking....

Well, I really miss those beautiful friendship. I promise to embrace the memory left.

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