I need to think more...

I was reading some books from the university library and believe it or not, a Mathematical student reading books on philosophy, history and theology. Anyway, I was finding it difficult to digest some of the books, especially those with words that I barely heard of. Anyway, I was sort of reading some collection of Kierkegaard and about Kierkegaard. I am inspired to see things in a different light as most of his books have left the interpretation and discovering part for the reader themselves.
As he noted "the task must be made difficult, for only the difficult inspires the noble-hearted."

Anyway lately, I'd learned more about this author who somehow amazes me with one his best ever written book, Fear and Trembling. As I searched some of the information from the internet and books regarding him, it was quite clear that the book was written during the period of time where he was totally heart broken.

If you guys are reading about this blog, then you should know more about this man who besides being intellectual and imaginative in his works, he is also someone who is faithful towards love, although his story is rather a sad one.

One aspect of Kierkegaard's life (generally considered to have had a major influence on his work, Fear and Trembling) was his broken engagement to Regine Olsen (1822–1904). Kierkegaard met Regine on 8 May 1837 and was instantly attracted to her, and she to him. In his journals, Kierkegaard wrote about his love for Regine:

Thou sovereign of my heart treasured in the deepest fastness of my chest, in the fullness of my thought, there ... unknown divinity! Oh, can I really believe the poet's tales, that when one first sees the object of one's love, one imagines one has seen her long ago, that all love like all knowledge is remembrance, that love too has its prophecies in the individual. ... it seems to me that I should have to possess the beauty of all girls in order to draw out a beauty equal to yours; that I should have to circumnavigate the world in order to find the place I lack and which the deepest mystery of my whole being points towards, and at the next moment you are so near to me, filling my spirit so powerfully that I am transfigured for myself, and feel that it's good to be here.

– Søren Kierkegaard, Journals[9] (2 February 1839)

On 8 September 1840, Kierkegaard formally proposed to Regine. However, Kierkegaard soon felt disillusioned and melancholic about the marriage. Less than a year after he had proposed, he broke it off on 11 August 1841. In his journals, Kierkegaard mentions his belief that his "melancholy" made him unsuitable for marriage, but his precise motive for ending the engagement remains unclear. It is generally believed that the two were deeply in love, perhaps even after she married Johan Frederik Schlegel (1817–1896), a prominent civil servant (not to be confused with the German philosopher Friedrich von Schlegel, (1772–1829)). For the most part, their contact was limited to chance meetings on the streets of Copenhagen. Some years later, however, Kierkegaard went so far as to ask Regine's husband for permission to speak to her, but Schlegel refused.

Soon afterwards, the couple left the country, Schlegel having been appointed Governor in the Danish West Indies. By the time Regine returned, Kierkegaard was dead. Regine Schlegel lived until 1904 and was buried near Kierkegaard in the Assistens Cemetery in Copenhagen.

If you read about the story of Fear and Trembling, which is actually the retelling of the story of Abraham sacrificing Isaac, you probably would be moved to look at the story in a new light.

Well, I feel there is still more that I should know. I need to think more because the process of it create a new me. So that new inspiration will come forth from this...